This Is Not A Distraction

How easy would it be to just jump in front of a bart train? I could just end it all, just like that… It scares me how I’m smiling while I’m writing this because deep down inside this is what I really want. I just want to disappear.

I know for a fact that I am definitely depressed again. & It’s…

if you didn’t care what other people thought, you wouldn’t be writing this. and i know i don’t know you really but i know a lot of people do love you regardless if you like it or not. what you’re going through is probably way more then what many teens do go through but you have to be one of them to actually get past it and then you’ll realize how valuable your life really is. if it’s your time to go, it’s your time.. but it’s not up to you to end it. let things pass and pray as much as you can. change things up and go somewhere different. maybe you’re just unhappy with your situation, but THAT you are able to change. i’m writing this because if you do commit suicide, i’ll feel responsible for not speaking up when i had the chance. just think of how much you have compared to most of the people in the world. be GRATEFUL that you have meat on your bones while millions of others don’t. who gives a fuck what society has to say, you’re YOU. be proud. there are so many people who would do anything to be where you’re at. think of not what you fucked up, but how you can change it and show everybody how powerful you are. just do what you have to do and FUCK EVERYBODY ELSE because in truth they’re dying for what you have. they’re dying to bring you down. if you give up you give them what you want. fight to get through, do not let society win!!!! ily and you can talk to me whenever even though we’re not good friends, sometimes the outside point of view can be better (at times).  

mk..so let’s talk about…devina miller. yes. devina miller

she is really the cheese to my macaroni, the filling for my empanadas, and the costa rican at my mexican side!

some people say we look alike, but i dont think so. shes from the other side of the spectrumm

so i met devina…

awww but ewww why did you put the last pic eww hahaha ily too carne asada… can’t wait to sleep overrrr we need a set date!!! and i wont let the crazy hobos attack you and show you their private parts!!! and for you, my mexican, i say… I GOT THISSSS haha jk but yeah ILYYYYYY